I AM

This is only tangentially a small business blog post, so when this quickly devolves into existential ‘Dear Diary’ pathos, I ask your forbearance.

I recently went to a prospective client’s home to create a scope and fee for a furniture project she was interested in having me do. While there, her husband called her on the phone. After chatting for a minute, she said to him, “Honey, that carpenter guy is here. I gotta go.” I kept sketching the project in my little notebook, but that phrase kept running through my head. “That carpenter guy…” She didn’t intend to be condescending, I’m sure. But nonetheless, I left her house muttering, “That carpenter guy, huh? Oh yeah, I’m that carpenter guy.”

A different kind of grateful

One of the unexpected blessings of starting this business is just how differently I view ‘income’ now. After getting my MBA and entering the corporate world, my salary and bonus were things I expected… things I DESERVED, darnit! I EARNED those things. And frankly, they weren’t high enough. I DESERVED more. I was FAR more productive and deserving than Bob, after all… And Susan only got where she got because of office POLITICS. I mean really, who does she think she is fooling???

This is a marathon, not a sprint!

One of my old bosses had a favorite phrase that he used on me often, particularly when he thought I was demonstrating too much youthful exuberance. “Loftis!” he’d say, “this is a marathon, not a sprint!” My cocky rejoinder was typically, “Well, yeah, but you’re always asking me to sprint this marathon.”

Houston, we have lift-off!

And… we’re off!

I want to tell you that I just got back from my company launch party, where friends and hangers-on dined at some place swanky and had champagne and generally let the bons temp roulez. Lots of well-wishing and bonhomie. But…

Here I sit in front of the computer with a three-day beard, having just finished a marathon session of working with my web developer to get this website done. I’m excited and terrified, sort of a pale facsimile of how I felt when my kids were born.